A Year Ago Today I Was The Happiest Girl Alive…Now I’m Barely Alive At All.
To Die In The Place Of Someone I Love, At Least It Has A Meaning And It Isn’t Just A Pointless Death Or Escape!
Should Be About 3 Days Now, I Love You With All My Heart And Pray To Be Only Yours!
I Love You VERY Much! You know who you are! You are my world and without you I really am nothing! Hope you have a spare moment to read this! You’ll be okay! I love you…I can’t say it enough!
Oh and thank you to tumblr for allowing me to do posts in advance!
I died once, when I was 2 years old, they diagnosed me of a rare heart condition. I died again when I was 8 years old, they said I was under too much stress and too much anxiety, no one could understand why and my silent self didn’t say a word. 2 weeks after my 18th birthday my heart stopped again, this time I was much older and much more aware. They told me of my condition and the procedures I’d have to go through, I had time to think about it, but not long. A couple of months ago, they asked me the questions again! My only reply was, the one and only person that would keep me on this planet doesn’t even need me, never mind want me.
The decision was made.
Just like that.
